Bless you for trying

Yesterday was a one nap day. Yes. One nap. That’s all I got out of him and we contact napped because I was too afraid that putting him down would wake him, and we’d be back to square one. We’ve all been there I’m sure.

He was awake from 7am until 12:30pm. I was exhausted. At one point I plopped him in his play pen and hid in the kitchen to down an espresso. Okay a double espresso... While I sat on the floor. Eventually he did go down and I was able to spend two and a half hours obsessively researching car seats. More on that another time.

I’d been texting husband, bemoaning our freakishly energetic baby, explaining how tiring it was, so on and so forth. He helpfully said, “he’ll sleep eventually”

.....

Easy for you to say, sat at work, eating sandwiches and listening to a podcast. Yes I appreciate you go to work and make the money and I’m still on maternity leave but COP ON.

Allow me to present an alternative:

“Oh I’m sorry he’s being difficult, why don’t I have him for an hour when I get home [after I’ve been to the gym for MORE me time] so you can have a break?”

I would have melted on the spot, a flock of white doves would have erupted from behind him, weapons of war would have been laid down, Joan Crawford and Bette Davis would have risen from their graves and taken afternoon tea together. A symphony would have been written in his honour.

What I actually got was a wee potted rose, pale pink. He looked so pleased with himself! I was taken by surprise, it’s so sweet and will be lovely in our bedroom. It’s a small gesture and not necessarily the one I wanted but it shows thought and generosity. I’ve come to realise that for the most part, men don’t have a clue. They’re wonderful but generally oblivious. And while yes it’s frustrating and not what I want I can’t be mad because I won’t TELL him what I want, because that’s not how I work. I don’t ask for help, and part of that is on the principal of I want him to SEE I need help, if that lunatic logic makes sense?

So yes, I was dog tired and I had cereal for dinner last night but I know he means well and is a wonderful man. I’m sure I’m not alone in this, have any of your other halves ever missed the mark but still gotten it almost right?

Now excuse me while I go and water yet ANOTHER thing my husband has given me that I have to keep alive.